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Thank God for giving me stories from my fam about life. It really moves my emotion, how people live their life in their own way. Though they might not be as lucky as me, but looking at what they have achieved now makes me realize I'm big NOTHING compared to them at my age.

"I want to continue my study in China, and I want to be a doctor" ... that's what I said to my parents maybe about my past 2 years.

Now, look at me. I'm in China and taking MBBS as my major. Such a perfect answer from them. It's like I can get whatever I wanted, while I know, thousands of people wanted this way, but they can't obtain it like they want no matter what the reasons were. According to the real consequences, I should become more than them, but somehow now I doubt it pretty much.

I know I'm so bloody lucky to have my fam, to have what I wanted, to be where I wanted to be. But it seems like I have "wasted" my last 6 months since I didn't have much progress as I expect, and please note it's not about my score, it's just about what I have achieved in my first semester. It's like.. just say if I was given the exact same amount of time, I could've learnt more while I'm in high-school rather than in university..

I take it as a new challenge though. Maybe in high-school, I was forced to study hard, while in university it all depends on my own will. Just please God don't let me waste my age, I've obtain one year extra from my Junior high, please help me use it wisely rather than "spill" it all up.